Post Natal Depression It IS more common than you think.
If you think you or someone close to you may be suffering from post natal depression please talk to someone today.
You don't need to go through it alone.
Post Natal Depression is estimated by some to effect as much as 1 in 4 mothers. This means either you, your mum, your mother in
I built up such a stigma around post natal depression in my head, I don't even know where that came from, maybe it was never knowing anyone close to me had been through it-even though many had. Or maybe it was the term mental illness itself making it sound so extreme.
I didn't find myself wanting to harm my baby but I did feel like I was doing everything wrong.
I did feel alone, tired, stressed out and cut off from the world.
I cried every night in the shower. I crumpled into a mess everyday when I was left home, alone, with my baby who I was sure thought I was a terrible mother.
Even when my baby did sleep I couldn't.
I worried over every possible thing that could go wrong. If I relaxed for even a minute something might happen to my baby...I felt like I had to do everything myself and everything perfectly.
It was living in a heavy shroud of darkness, where only faint streaks of light peeked through. Enough to keep going but never enough to allow a patch of beautiful blue sky to warm completely my world of grey.
For me discovering exercise was my release. Every time I took my baby out for a walk, in amongst the tree's, the birds, under the sun and in that fresh air. I felt a little better and a little lighter in every sense of the word.
Yes I lost 30 kilo's of actual physical with those walks but I also probably more importantly lost the deep, dark weight of depression and discovered a passion for my own health and wellbeing and sharing inspiration with other mums.
There is so much support out there-you don't ever need to suffer alone xx
If you know of are in or run a PND support group or program please let me know so I can add your links here.
Supporting each other in the journey that is motherhood.